Standing Still

July 1, 2009

God's Hands

God's Hands

Greetings, fellow trudgers on “the road of happy destiny”…

As we walk this road, many of us face difficulty letting go of painful and repetitive—yet comfortingly familiar—patterns of thought and behavior. These might be the very same things that have kept us locked in “self-constructed prisons,” tied down in the “bondage of self,” yet we know them as old friends, and turn to them over and over.

I came across this wonderful passage:

“We found that the most healing antidote to the gnawing pain of our struggles and doubts was to turn over any questions concerning the outcome of our withdrawal to God, or to whatever Power we felt was helping us to abstain from our old patterns.

“Through all of this we became, one day at a time, available to ourselves. By the simple act of “standing still,” we inaugurated a relationship with ourselves based on growing self-honesty, trust and intimacy.

“Now we knew that our goal was to lay the foundation for a personal wholeness. How this would translate into personal relationships or careers, we did not know. But what we did know was the the externals would eventually develop around this inner foundation of wholeness, and come to reflect our inner state.”

Happy Trails!

Affirmative Action

June 1, 2009



Greetings, fellow trudgers “on the road to happy destiny”…

I was reading about affirmations today. I was reminded how often I struggle to believe that they can be true (for me). I’ve heard that it doesn’t matter whether I believe—it only matters that I’m willing. I make the affirmation either in prayer, aloud in solitude, or within the fellowships of recovery.

Here’s what I read:

“One cost of addiction and coaddiction is loss of faith in our abilities. We can learn to reprogram ourselves with positive, healthy messages. We can select from a list the affirmations that have meaning for us, or add some of our own. Each affirmation is written in the present—as if we are already accomplishing it. It may not be a reality for us today. We may need to “act as if.” It may be difficult, but we can think of it as planting a garden, with possibilities that will blossom into wonderful realities. We can put the list on the bathroom mirror and repeat them while we wash up. We can keep a copy in the car to repeat while driving. We can record these comforting words and listen to them when driving, during meals, at bedtime.”

Today I accept that the life I have known is over.
I am entering a new and blessed phase of my time here.
I accept pain as my teacher and problems as the key to a new existence for me.
I seek guides in my life and understand that they may be different than I anticipate.
I accept the messages surrounding me. Negativity is replaced with positive acceptance.
I realize that I have had a hard life and that I deserve better.
I let the Spirit melt the hardness of my heart.
I comfort and nurture myself. As part of the surrender of my pride I will let others give to me as an act of faith in my value as a person.
I appreciate that in the chaos of the now, my instinct and beliefs may work against me. My recovering friends help me sort out healthy instincts and beliefs from unhealthy ones.
Time is transforming my loneliness into solitude, my suffering into meaning, and my relationships into intimacy.
I do not blame or search for fault. It is not who, but how, and what happened.
I commit to reality at all costs, knowing that is where I will find ultimate serenity.
I accept that life is difficult and that leaning into the struggle adds to my balance.

And so, just for today, I’ll keep the faith—or act as if I have it—and give affirmations a try.

Happy trails!

(photo by Lynn Pelham)